My Relationship with Writing

Over the years my relationship with writing has changed drastically. Around third through seventh or eighth grade I used to love writing. And  I loved writing because I knew how to do it and it came easily to me. I could type up or write well worded essays and papers and personal statements at a young age. Writing was something I was good at and something I was better than other people and I liked to convey my thoughts. Then, high school came around and honestly it tore me down. Teachers seemed like they were only looking for one type of writing and that I was not used to at all. Of course, they also had their favorites, of which I was not, and whose writing was better than I could have ever dreamed (or at least so I thought). (Yet I never really wanted to be like them.) I think since then my writing has sunk to a slump. It isn't great and I feel like I'm not progressing though I know I have a ways to go. Now, I feel like I can never get all my thoughts down on paper, and it it is very infrequently that I am confident in my writing. The words can never come fast enough, my words never seem "intelligent" enough. Really, I'm not sure what's happened to my writing and my mindset towards writing. It's become more of a drag than something I love to do and I know that's bad since being at school I'm going to be expected to write papers on papers and well written at that. However, I'm hoping that this class teaches me something more about writing than I've experienced in the past. That it doesn't have to be a drag and as unlikely as it may seem at this age (to me), that it's possible to become a better writer.